Do you remember what being happy feels like?

by Rob Galanakis on 30/11/2011

As I’m coming up on my 5-month mark at my new job, I was thinking about how happy I am here at CCP.  I’ve been waking up at 7:30 for weeks, braving the frigid Icelandic mornings, because I have been so excited to get into work.

My happiness caused me to reflect upon the utter boredom and frustration I felt at my previous job my last six months or so there.  But then I started remembering further back and wondering, when was the last time I felt like this?  Developing something I felt passionate about, something that people saw value in without me having to spend months convincing them, something I didn’t have to beg to get resources to work on.  In a place where people are overwhelmingly positive and non-hostile, with just enough aggression to make sure we can have lively discussions.

I know CCP has its problems and I’ve come in at, in many ways, a good time.  I know there are people unhappy where I am happy.  I know there are people who can work in the same type of environment I was unhappy in and love work every day.  Different strokes for different folks.

What I’m saying is, I spent a long time working, thinking I was happy, but it was because I forgot what happy was.  Or maybe I wasn’t thinking I was happy, maybe I just forgot to consider it entirely.  I forgot what a healthy work environment was, because I came so invested with the people, and stuff I had made, I lost perspective.  (Perhaps this was why I became so unhappy when I switched teams- I lost my already strained sense of ownership and commitment).

No rant or advice or recommendations or even new or good ideas.  Just wanted to share.


There are 4 comments in this article:

  1. 12/12/2011Guest says:

    Hey Rob. 5 months? Are you really this shortsighted? It’s like watching a kid say he’ll NEVER get tired of THIS toy. Frankly, if you don’t get tired of it you stopped growing. Take it as a good learning experience for the time when you forge your own destiny, but if you aren’t back to being a grumpy asshole in 6 months I’ll eat my hat. Not that I wear hats.

  2. 23/03/2012Seth says:

    Thanks again for posting this, guess it’s my turn to right one now…Rock on.

  3. 23/03/2012Seth says:

    that’s “write”

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